...just not all at the same time.
the life i have is a good one. an enviable and simple one. but i have not had a grateful heart lately and it bothers me that i am not more thankful for all that God has given to me. i have been bitter and ugly about some things. i have been controlling. i have been whiny and needy.
i want this. i want that.
i want, i want, i want.
i know the life i have is a good one. i know that getting stuff is not what happiness is about. i know that i am loved and provided for. i look around and see how much i have, how many of my everyday needs are met.
i still feel something missing.
'you can have it all just not all at the same time.' sometimes people are faced with hard choices, like the choice between food or medicine. many choices can seem insignificant. what to eat, what to wear, what to watch.
some choices we pretend we have no control over. a thought. an attitude. a comment.
i can have ambition or i can have contentment. i can have self-pity or i can have gratitude.
what is it that i want? i want a servant's attitude. please help me, Lord. fill me with gratitude for all that i have and have it pour out of me everyday.